~* tr3sscret BoX*~

R.I.P my dearest granny

2011-10-01T04:48:00.000-07:00

i will NEVER EVER wanna write this post,
i've never ever thought that i will write this post after my previous post,
it just a month ago,
when i was writing the previous post,
tears were running through my face.
now,
when i am writing this post,
tears just flooded over my face.

1st photo took in my new camera phone
never ever thought it would be the last photo of her
which i can capture for her
i miss her so much
she's gone for almost 2 weeks
she already left us for almost 2 weeks
i miss her in every moment
I wonder how is she now?
I wonder is she doing good?
I wonder did god really take good care of her now?
there are just so many wonders in my mind
im a selfish grandchild
eventhough i knew that
she's in hospital
but i didnt rush back in time
eventhough i knew that
she wanted me by her side
but i didnt be by her side for most of the time
She's looking for me during the last day she's alive
but im just too far away from her
i left her
after seeing her for just less than 10 minutes
what a SELFISH me
what a BAD grandchild me
i've regretted for not accompanying by her side for longer period
I really REGRETTED
but it's just too LATE
im just so sorry to her

i should have accompany her
but it just too late to say this now
sleeping beside her
during the last night that she will be with us
was the last thing that i can do
to accompany her
knew that she's afraid to be alone
that's why i stay beside her for that night
just to accompany her for her last journey with us
usually she will always ask me to stay with her
most of the time i rejected
and only a few times i stayed with her
she took good care of me when i stayed
but that night was the last night i stayed with her
and she was not able to take care of me anymore
grandpa had took her away
seeing her lying in an icy coffin
i wish that she could hear me
i really wish to
i have so much to say to her
i have so much to do with her
but yet it's just too late
now,everytime went back to her house
i miss her voice
which always ask me am i hungry?
when is your holiday?
not gonna stay with popo tonight?
i miss these
i seriously miss these
maybe God wanna took her away from those painness
maybe God don't want her to suffer anymore
maybe grandpa knew that she was afraid of those sufferings
that's why they took her away
may God really take good care of her
may grandpa really protect her wife in their world
Popo,
i wish that i could be your granddaughter again
in the next life
i'm glad to have you, popo
婆婆，您辛苦了~
祝您，一路顺风~
好好跟着阿公享受二人世界吧~

树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不待

now i could really deeply understand this chinese idiom
that kind of regret is just undescribable
please appreciate the one you loved
be greatful when they are still here

God, please bless her in every moment

2011-08-25T07:05:00.000-07:00

It's holiday next week~
but i'm not in holiday mood
it's not a holiday at all
assignments,homeworks,reports
all filled up my time
it's very busy
a superb busy life~
so sorry that i didn't go home
so sorry that i'm busying with my stuffs
received a bad news few days ago
currently, stress + sad + worry mood
all mixed up
i wish i had more time
i wish i could go back home now
i wish i could visit my dear granny now
i wish i had more time to accompany her
i know it will be kinda lonely and scary
to stay in medical centre alone
but i can't leave n go to her
DAMN ! busy life
all i can do was just
PRAY, I PRAY! PRAY HARD that
GOD, BLESS HER
may GOD really bless her
may GOD lead her to a healthier,better tomorrow

a NEW stage - tougher challenges

2011-08-21T08:38:00.000-07:00

WEEEE!
start with a good picture
1st time playing ipad..
not mine..haha
addicted to it..duhhh...hehe..
夜深了，但睡不着，
虽然明天有早课，
还是手痒要上网。
偶尔，用华语写部落格
真的能抒发更多的感情（好像很感性酱）
人生的另个阶段的开始，
像个婴儿刚学走路，
偶尔也会跌跌撞撞。
但是，我也得坚强的爬起来，
努力的往前跑，甚至是飞。
不管周围是怎么样，
先得做好自己。
不管别人怎么比你好，
先得把自己做好。
别人比你优秀，
就向别人的优点学习，
把自己提升更上一城楼。
虽然过程很累，
也不可气馁。
我得做好自己，
永不放弃。
勇闯每个障碍，
找到更好的未来！
向目标勇往直前吧！

it's time 2 "breath"

2011-06-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

it's been some time

that I was living in

the "dusty and complicated"

atmosphere

well, sometimes i just need something like this

~ the nature

to refresh my mind =)

something green,

something fresh,

something peaceful,

to take away

my worries,

my sorrows,

my stupid thoughts as well =)

obviously,my "yo-yo" pose was failed..

Due to the lil short fingers..HA!

a "monkey"

trying to pose with that

steel thingy

OBVIOUSLY,

it's a stupid pose!

haha!

weeee!

we're on TOP of the city

(kononnya)

HAHAHA!

trying to leave that heavy stuff up?

I'VE MADE IT K?

well, that umbrella is really a "disaster"

my face was as red as "guan gong" as well

haha!

it's normal phenomenon4 me..hehe

i'm really MADDDDDDDD!

ignore the sweat!

Feel the freedom

a kind of release

that clear my mind for a moment

A moment in TIME~

(moment- westlife)

haha! this song is nice anyway =)

In a GOOD MOOD!

2011-05-03T23:53:00.000-07:00

GOOD MOOD
GOOD MOOD
finally come to me
haha~
a relaxing wednesday
only have one class in the morning
got myself a GOOD breakfast
got myself a GOOD walk
got myself a GOOD nap
it is just because
I don't feel like doing anything at this moment
=.= lazy betol...haha
hardly ever have this kind of relaxing moment
since a long long time ago~
next week is my trials
few more weeks is my finals!
COME ON!
GOTTA PUT ALL MY EFFORT!
YO!
不管了！
有的没的，我全都给你拼了！
人生没有多少的读书时光，
就算单独没人陪，
也得过得精彩，
要不，如何对得起自己呢？
haha~
i feel great,
im in my own world while writing this,
sitting opposite2 the window,
feeling the touch of the sunlight
and the afternoon breeze blowing through my face...
it's great sometimes =)
all my worries had gone with the wind in a moment
^.^

有时候,it just really dumb

2011-04-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

it's been a looonnnggg time i didnt write my blog~
Coz i don't really want to write,
and i dont really have the mood at all.
Busy with all the stuffs like hell...
i think so..
coz just end my 1 week holiday...
doing nothing...
kinda wasting my time actually...
i admit this sem i had lost my study passion ( a lot)
im so lazy =.=
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!!!
我好像变成了一个“懦弱”的人了
以往那个有话直说的，
什么屁都乱放的我，
不见了！
有时候，可以说是常常吧，
脑里是想到一些想说的话，
想说但也算了吧，
没人会听我的“废话”~
有时候却说话说得更直更过火了，
怎么了，
怎么会变如此的我？
算了吧，
还是选择不管了，
不管别人了，
别人干什么屁事，
也不关我的事！
何必将在意？
在意一些有的没的的“屁事”.
I'm gonna end all these stupid stuffs...
gonna focus on my own world~
i wanna look 4 my passion...
My passions for everything~
not just trouble myself with nonsense ANYMORE!
Im gonna find back WHO I AM!

OH! cacat timetable~

2011-01-05T03:43:00.000-08:00

HAIZ~~~~

at first,my timetable just nice~

that's wat i want~

yam gong!

never thought that it would change again ==

yee~

my ad maths class only 5 little "kitty"

so they CLOSED the class

what?!!!

not fair leh~~~ yerr~

change to the only ad maths class in this sem ==

early morning for the day

would be ADVANCED MATHS class~

terpaksa change my chem class AGAIN!

hey,i prefer chem in the early morning!

coz my chem is bad =(

when chem lecturer ungkit bout it in the class

makes me feel sad n curious y it's like tat =(

gek sam~

luckily got the same lecturer for chem =)

erm..i kinda like her more now coz she's not showing

bad mood face now..haha..

she used to be in bad mood in last sem coz the earliest class

n all blur blur.. xD

hope i won't sleep in her class

coz OH MY GOD!

the "cute" ms LEE(my ex ad maths lecturer)

tundakan my chem class the last

== the sleepiest period..zha dou~

she "expand" my break time pula

gosh~ that 3 hours break time what to do?

she somemore ajak go chat with her in the office

if too free ==

not funny at all~

the worst is im gonna have double maths class continuous again this sem

T^T

last sem almost made me condemned

this sem

HWAHWAHWA!

higher level,tougher

n summo again 2gether~

it really make me feel so awful

felt so headache n kinda like not comfortable

in the 2nd maths class...

hoosh~

it will be continue for like 5 months~

just hope that i can tahan that =)

im done with my "rajuk" stuff..haha~

coz i can't get a better solution for that

so why not adapt better for that

i can do it! =)

do better n gets further =)

回到宿舍

2011-01-02T07:06:00.000-08:00

只能说不知不觉的~

离开了去年~

已开始了今年的第二天~

新的一年，

也没特别的祝大家~

因为来来去去还是那个样

而且也没有什么特别的心情

也发现我已经懒散了好两个月了

那两个月，我想我做了我以往爱做的事

一个又懒散又轻松的我，哈哈！

还蛮开心的~

今天回到宿舍了~

两个月没在那儿生活

还真的有些陌生了

大家都说我胖了 ==

哈哈！算了啦，我知道我的确胖了... xD

要开学了，

要变回那“书僵尸” 了...哈哈！

时间还真的过得无比的快~

该过的就过吧~

努力往自己的目标前进~

累了，别忘了歇一歇~

好让明天活得更美好 =)

--The BEST CHRISTMAS ever had IN my life-- 25/12/2010

2010-12-29T21:56:00.000-08:00

Hebe is IN THE TOWN 25/12/2010

the stage

she's leaving i think =)

hohoho! "monkey" performance... hahaha

IT'S US! wow!
so happy can take photo with hebe =)

"lao da" is explaining..haha..
purposely being "brought up" to stage by hebe~

biang biang biang!

hebe is covering us~
haha..since our performance kinda "fail"
THANKS HEBE! xD

people are waiting outside the hall

a lot right? haha

queing for autografsss

take photos..take take take! XD

hebe got a lots of "weirdo acts" tat day..a lot..haha

she's cute still =)

her victory ..haha

attracting right?
xD

she is singing around with the background music
while waiting for the sponsors tocome on stage..haha

wooo~
haha~

wanna sleep dah? haha..
still early thou~

he llllooooo!

wanna shake hand?
haha~
her hands are soft gila~
wonder wat kind of lotion she used.. xD

start syok sendiri..haha
singing n running around on stage

yeah!

c those medias..walao! xD

y not let my sis to be there? haha..

orrrrhhhh~
streching n ready for sleep..
haha

purposely gonna write about this
at the 2nd last day of year 2010 =)
25.12.2010
this day gonna be the best christmas i had in my life
^.^
everything in this day just happened like
it's a lucky day,surprising day,good day =)
never knew i could sit in vvip seats =)
never knew im gonna have a little performance in front of HEBE~
^.^
it's just feel so good =)
athough it's tiring that day..haha
although it's not the 1st time be so close to Hebe~
but it's still fun to be at there~
it's the 1st time going promo tour
without queing in a long long queue~
haha~
Hebe was so active that day =)
never c her so active in past events~
singing along,moving along like emo girl..haha
it's a little kecacatan in the performance..
but haiz..let it go la..haha..
wanna c some video clips of that day..
here are some links =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lY1VUBMMW8&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K46iMQtf25k&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-rHaPCXcCc&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NeSiAoIfsyg&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xpX-kyD2Z1Q&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtoyNJvtPaE&feature=player_embedded
http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=486980779418&oid=246594908646&comments

it's gonna end

2010-12-15T06:56:00.000-08:00

hmmm~
december gonna end soon..
T^T
oh gosh~
holiday passed like rocket...
yeee~
i havent complete my tasks yet...
just some...
oh oh oh~
=.="
n im getting fatter ...
yish...eventhough i exercised..
coz eat a lot...
yam gong..haha~
currently just waiting 4
Hebe to come~
some said S.H.E and her won't be coming to malaysia
in future~
it may be the last time 4 us to see them...
what a SAD news =(
it's really a DISASTER!
the news really hurts....
haiz... haisssshhhh~
looked back whaT i've done for this year..
i could say that
this year is really fulled with changes~
A lot of stuffs just happened this year...
National service, SPM result
Working,Applying for scholarships,
went through a lot of interviews,
choosing uni and course,
step into uni life,...
facing new environment...
seperated with buddies in high school~
seriously this year is so "full"
life is getting stablized now~
wow~
it's just like happened in a sudden..
and sometimes just don't believe that
i already did so many things in a year
^.^
what a turning point..haha
2010 gonna end soon~
there are lots of wishes i wanna wish...
haha...
but just don't wanna be so greedy...
just wish everything going smooth always =)
LOVE YOUR LIFE~
BE HAPPY =)

Pissed OFF!

2010-12-05T20:43:00.000-08:00

damn in angry mood now!
so pissed off!
i'm DONE FOR TODAY!
IM GONNA DO MY STUFFS!
already 3 weeks holiday left!
n i cant even do my stuffs yet?!!!
HELLO!
i got books to read...
NOT JUST SPENDING SPARE TIME
OF DOING THOSE STUPID STUFFS?!!!!!!
what the~
not im not willing to do...
IM JUST A NORMAL HUMAN!
in a sec just command me do this do that!
HELLO!
WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO actually?!!!
i cant do things in a sec~
dont cha imagination too OVER!
DAMN IT!
y cant do IT 1 BY 1!!!!!?
faster faster faster~
only know how to "accelerate" n COMMAND!
IM DONE!
IM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING!
IM JUST GONNA DO MY STUFFS!
it exceeds my patience limit..
im pissed OFF!
IM DONE FOR TODAY!
not gonna do anything...
u so multi-function..
go do yourself...
I AM DONE FOR IT!!!!

Badmin-"torn"!

2010-12-02T06:49:00.001-08:00

Have you ever break a racket before?
without noticing?
XD

pictures below are some good examples..
haha..

retarded racket

today suddenly got mood4 badminton~
just the moment i switched off my computer...
HELLO!
y God let His tears dropped at this moment?!!!!
haiz..fine la...
already long time didnt play badminton ~
my hands are so gatal~
luckily the rain stopped half an hour then..
haha..
TIME FOR BADMINTON
of coz..haha
syok gila play badminton after rained...
it was so humid...
n u can feel the mist is passing by ur bulu-pore..
haha...
it's cooling our body too..haha
play till late evening..
after the sun set..
still playing although can't the shuttlecock at all..
BUT,
suddenly felt something wrong with my racket..
@.@
WHAT?!
already broke..
how come?!!!!!
i was so blur..haha..
maybe overuse force on it..hehe...
Dec already started...
it's gonna end soon too~
hmmmppphhhh~
i don't want the timepast so fast actually...
coz once new sem coming...
it's gonna be much more tougher than the 1st sem...
lecturer said 1st sem is just like kacang stage (miss chooi phrase ^^)
OH GOSH! 1st sem already dragged half of my life already...
oh my!
next week gonna know my result...
gooooossssshhhhh!
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!
^^

27/11/2010-officially 18!

2010-11-27T07:17:00.000-08:00

~25~

the pic i loved the most among all..haha..
3 Best Buddies (3B square)..haha

may our friendship will be connected like what in the christmas balls~
no ending point.. ^^

L.Ping & W.Wen
THANKS !
^.^
sincerely thank u "girls"..haha
thanks4 "pre-celebrating" my birthday..haha~
1st time 3 of us celebrating my birthday kan? XD
really enjoyed it..
coz im always be like the real ME in front of 2 of you~
no pretending,no "filterations",no "resistance".
i felt so comfort to be myself in front of both of you~
haha..
officially i dah 18 ya =)
we are upgrading to "aunty level" soon..haha
im greatful that i met both of u in my life..
especially in high school life...
it would be dim n boring without u guys in high school~
(miss our go bananas moments T^T)
although now v have our own life seperately now...
our friendship will be connected no matter what.. ^.^
glad to have both of you in Kononnya's life~
^.^
(still sempat to thank u guys in the last mins of my birthday..haha)

~ 27 ~
2day supposed2 be the day i would be happy ~
coz im officially 18!
no more feeling scare entering cinema watching 18sg movies..HA!
but usually there's sad things happened during this day..
like already few years were ended like that~

it's a tired day~
and i ruined the day myself...
just feel bad 2day~
had some arguments today~
im tired~
and i already tolerate,k~
but still blame this blame that...
sorry la...when im tired,don't ever try to go against my patience...
definitely i will raise my voice and start releasing my high-amplitude sound waves~
im trying to do some solutions
trying to solve the problems faced...
IM TRYING!
i don't wanna have so many troubles either~
I AM TRYING!
unfortunately,im neither extraordinary nor genius~
still need time to solve problems like NORMAL HUMAN!
although im tired,
I AM TRYING la~
im so sorry that i don't have that " multi-purpose" mode in me la...
im sorry that i raise my voice today...
it's just because it's already went over my patience limit...
i am trying~
with my all efforts~~~~

18
more responsibilities being carried on
more mature thinkings are needed
higher level of patience limit is needed

~ Officially 8-teen ~

Seriously realized a lot

2010-11-20T05:14:00.000-08:00

tak habis habis main =.=" hahaha...

i like white christmas tree =)

time is passing like shooting stars~
it past very fast~
day by day...
it's already almost a year since i end my high scul life...
Everything is changing in every second..
even ur bulu also growing..haha
if u look back and flashback everything
u will realized~
wah..it's already ....
time past really fast...
my form5 physics teacher
- ms spongebob (tak biasa call her puan still..hahaha)
already wanna transfer to pahang...
she has to "accelerate" in order to kejar her husband....
haha...
eventhough tak sampai hati,
eventhough very sad....
at this stage,have to accept it naturally la...
wish her all the best~
farewell =)

2day back2 klcc to work
but not chili's anymore
haha...
nearly walked back the "chili's pathway" this morning...
everything really change a lot eventhough it's just a few months...
what u're looking at is kinda different what u're looking when it's few months ago...
haiz...
sometimes seriously felt like time really passing faster n faster....
haish....
everything is changing,
everybody is changing....
including myself too~

im in the process of becoming independent...
i don't really like but have to...
n what happens today really made me realized that
society in malaysia nowadays
is not really like the same what v r having in scul time...
not really harmony pun...
it makes me feel so tak selesa anyway...
haiz...
human 'grow" as time "grow"~

grow up as the light in future glow~
=)
life is seriously like a battlefield..
BATTLE FOR YOUR LIFE! XD

知足

2010-10-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

人，本来就不容易知足~
人，本来就要求多多~
人，本来就身在福中，不知福~
人，往往喜爱追求一切完美~

做人该知足~
但做人也得要有要求啊~
真是矛盾...
唉！
要说服自己知足，
更是不容易~
难道要样样百分百才知足吗？

因为“比”
人，才会不知足~
人，才会变得贪心~

因为“比”
人，才会觉得开心~
人，才会觉得光荣~

“比”真的那么重要吗？
“比”其实很累人~
因为大家都那么的 “kia su"~

偶尔也会觉得累~
偶尔也想把自己空~

但就因为 "kia-su"~
才没时间累，没时间放空~~~~~

请！
知！
足！
吧！

wrong Wrong WRONG!

2010-10-21T01:38:00.000-07:00

it's kinda tiring
when you get upset
n angry at the same time
it used up lots of ATP~
oh GOSH!
headache still =.=
mmmm~
thought wanna stay back 2day
i can't tahan la...
i feel so pening 2day...
went back hostel n sleep...
wow!
tired n hungry at the same time...
after taking nap,
hungry gila...
finish all the meals mom brought yesterday...
gorgeous =.=
then go buy lots packets of chips...
=.=
i 'consumed" almost all of it..
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!
fats growing =.="
fine la...
mood gets better after that....
then on9...
found out something....
i think im wrong...
what i did seriously wrong ~
gotta be awake
AWAKE!!!!
in a sudden
got a kind of feel
like 辛酸 that kind of feel...
i dunno how to describe...
but i know im stupid4 doing these stuffs...
清醒吧~
别再傻了~
傻小孩也该清醒了~

T.T worse than worst

2010-10-20T00:52:00.000-07:00

I can't believe what the hell i did
in my paper~
juz finished trial yesterday
2day almost got back the paper
when i knew my marks,
i "HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" O.O
WHAT?!!!!
T.T
even the lecturer oso replied me : "HUH?!"
haiyo~
seriously that moment is so awkward~
like a lightning strike through my heart...
T.T
tears dripping along like rain drops....
seriously,i wanna cry~
but physically i cant cry...
my heart is crying~
mommy came 2day
i dun dARE2 tell her at all my marks...
but i think my face showed what my feeling that moment...
im her daughter
how can she dun read my mind anyway...
I felt so disappointed
damn disappointed....
tear glands were full
but tears are n0t allow2 drip...
this feeling is SO AWKWARD!!!!
GOSH!
HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE ?!!
this time cost me A LOT!
=(
im gonna get further n further away from my min~
T.T
all sorts of feelings came 2 me
in a sudden
oh gosh~
i felt angry 2 myself~
felt sorry....
mom, this time i don't have the courage
2 tell what i've got...
I FAIL!
T.T
SORRY~
this thing never ever appear in my life..
but now...
SORRY~~~
I'm damn sad now.....
how can I make sooo many mistakes...
it shouldn't happen...
AT ALL!
T.T
I'm SAD & BLUE!!!
I don't feel like i wanna continue anymore...
gonna stop here
.

most casual ever

2010-10-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

damn lazy 2day~
after chem exam til 11 something,
nothing to do~
so just cincai wear la..
haha..wear a simple shirt n shorts(usually only wear in hostel)
then + selipar!
haha...cukup casual...
malas la...haha
1st time...housemates stare at me in the morning ...XD
last paper for trial...
no comment~
cuz 50% 50%
then wait4 tat stupid late bus til 2pm!
stupid gila.... if know earlier,
go2 pyramid better...
fine..balik then cook..haha
=.= housemates ejek me when i cooked
coz seldom cook at hostel...haha
I CAN COOK OK?
XD
2day kinda blank la..haha...
haiz...wanna go home la...
sleep on my "wangi " bed..haha...
so fast it's mid of oct..
gosh~
everything go so fast...
hooosssshhhh~
seems like every1 is preparing4 finals...
gambateh ya =)

paper-'backed'

2010-10-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

i got backed my paper 2day~
T.T
i dunno wat2 say...
seriously.....
haiz~
the lecturer more dissappointed than me
i think so
she soooooo moody...
or i should say
she langsung no mood at all~
haiz~
WORST! EVER~
the only phrase i can mentioned
seriously it's worst ever~
she said the paper is easy~
but i wonder y i cant solve it~
i know i was wasting time on something i shouldn't
i should do wisely next time~
im so sorry~
sorry2 myself~
n sorry2 my lecturer~
=(
i try my best~
learn from mistakes~~~~

AAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I JUST WANNA SCREAM NOW!

2010-10-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I JUST WANNA SCREAM NOW!!!!
=(
what the hell i did today?
worse than shit!
OH!
MY!
GOD!
i don't wanna imagine it 2moro how will it be~
this saturday trials start~
oh my god~
my memory like hilang~
what i learnt few months ago
like already disappear from my memory box~
gosh~
a lot of subjects to revise ~
today i just end my last ad maths test
HONESTLY,
I DID BADLY!
i empty few questions~
1st time blank answer in paper....
i have the feeling that
the lecturer will kena me 2moro~
"YOUNG LADY~~~~ WHAT HAPPENED TO U?!!!!, I DIDN'T TEACH YOU THAT WAY,DO YOU REALLY SURE WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!!! bla bla bla~~~~"
and everytime my respond will be
"O.o" huh?
"hair-wire"
haiyo~~~
hope won't fail la~
this paper seriously a big tamparan2 me ~
please don't get low marks~~
even cukup makan pun,i will feel satisfy...
T.T
seriously feel so bad about the paper leh...
dun flung leh...
BIG IMPACT de leh....
T.T
EXAMS coming liao~
i wanna "push" myself harder liao~
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!
(positive mind will always make thing better although a bit ^.^)

WOW! nice day..

2010-10-07T04:39:00.000-07:00

2day is the MUFY TALENT QUEST 2010
gosh~
im damn so nervous when im the 2nd to perform...
BUT they 're really un-organised...
i dun even know where i shud be...
where im gonna suppose2 wait...
it is so un-organised..
=.=
luckily i asked....
if not,im gonna continue sit at audience sits be "audience"
then dah jadi the 4th...
so got "jodoh" with number 4..
presentation the 4th,this oso the 4th...
haha..
anyway,
i'm damn enjoyed when the high pitch part..haha..
coz that's the moment im not nervous...hehe..
i know i did stand like "wood' juz now...
haha...
nervous ma....
n thirsty oso..
i dun have the chance2 drink b4 perform...
haha...
didnt win any prizes BUT
I ENJOYED!
seriously....
i like it..hehe...
still got a little cuty trophy as appreciation...
haha..i like tat..as memory oso..
hehe..champion goes 2 a guy seriously talented in piano,drums n bla bla bla...
he is talented..haha...
2nd goes2 a beat boxer...
i like his performance2..^^
then the 3rd goes2 a pair of dancer...
not really being impress by their dance anyway...
haha...
but i enjoyed..
^.^
seriously i wanna listen back how i sang juz now..hehe...
coz i langsung cant hear the music n my voice....haha...
maybe me dreaming or technical problem..hehe
but it's good memory4 my college life..haha...
I LOVE SINGING N SCREAMING!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!

surrender @.@

2010-10-04T03:16:00.000-07:00

this time i really "surrender"~
my stomach pain til @.@
i pening..
no choice~
skip class 2day...
skip 2 classes n went back hostel early...
gosh~
felt guilty 2 skip class...
haiz...
once came back...
sleep ..sleep ..sleep...
for more than 3 hours...
wah seh~
wat a longgg nap....
body old liao..
XD
talent quest is coming soon this thursday..
wishing myself good luck...
n wont "embarassed" myself
in such a BIG HALL...
n in front sooooo many people...
=.=
gonna sing Gareth Gates - Say it isn't So
but dunno the college comp can play that song anot,,,
hope no error la...
give me a good starting =)
GoOD LUCK!
no lari pitch ^.^

Thanks ! Miss Lee! =)

2010-09-23T03:21:00.000-07:00

HAHA!
im starting with a happy phrase..haha
im happy 2day...
coz i got back my ad maths test result
WOW! happy...
far from my expectation.. XD
i tot im gonna flung again..
coz i "lost direction" in 2 ques..
carry half of 100 marks neh
kai wan xiao...
at 1st,i tot i tembak correctly..
so happy... =)
but when i checked ,
rupa-rupanya,
got mistakes
BUT Miss Lee still giving me marks
THANKS! last time usually a small little tiny mistake also cant cheat her...
maybe this time she's trying2 give me 'kelonggaran"..
haha...
coz i 'inisiative" finish most of the exercises n let her "ngam" 4 a while...
haha..
thanks =)
i really really appreciate it...
then 2day class was shorten 2 half an hour per period..
so 2day almost end up no class except ad maths class
coz lecturer absent and this la tat la...
haiz..CHEM AR?!!!
when the lecturer is coming back?
test coming!
n U ARE NOT TEACHING THE TOPIC YET?!!!!!!
IT'S COMING OUT IN TEST LEH!!!!
WAT THE~~~ *&%$#@@%
but fine la..
2day im kinda happy
so went hypermarket myself
"reward" myself a new hair spray..haha
then i dunno y i go buy a "kinderjoy' egg...
dunno y suddenly wanna buy it4 my nasty sis..
n gonna bring it back2 her 2ml...haha..
anyway,im happy 2day~
=)

Last day =(

2010-09-19T00:30:00.000-07:00

Less than 1 day2 go~
holiday is going2 end~
nyeh nyeh~
i don't really like2 return to "sunway life" actually~
kinda don't like that kind of "independent" life~
the surrounding is sooooo "cold"~
honestly,i dun like the people there..
haiz..i know im soooo choosy~
hehe~
dunno la~
some of them like making me more stress~
hell...i hate that...
usually i dah stress myself...
they 're making me worse~
make me feel like actually IM SO WORST!
jeeeerrrrrrkkkkkkkkk~
yeeeee~
y human sometimes are so "comparitive"?
STOP COMPARING! i hate that~
fine...
i felt like i "lock" myself there~
like~
so serious there~
almost i start my day so doomy every morning there~
siennnzzz ar siennnnzzzzzzzz~
4 my target...
gotta be patient4 few more months
^.^
im looking 4ward~
better future~

L.I.F.E

2010-09-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

夜深了，
听着S.H.E的“店小二”
突然好有feel写部落格
也突然有兴致用华语呢~
因为我的华语逐渐差了~
沟通也有了问题~

能说长大了吗？
也还算得上是吧~
偶尔还是觉得自己爱停留在以前~
可是，自己已明白这是不行的，
却偏偏爱停留在以前~
对自己说，人总要往前走吧~
谁不想不想长大呢？
长大了，
负担也重了，面对的事业不同了~
自己的性格也在改变了~
面对着不同的生活，
不同的环境，
自己也会变得不同~
只能对自己说，
人总要经历不同的阶段，
这就是其中一个阶段了~

说到梦想，
谁会没有呢
我，有许多的梦想~
希望都不是“妄想”。。哈哈
梦想的“门”一开了
不过那道路还真的蛮长的
像柴九说“人生有多少个十年啊？”
还真的不多呢~
我的两个十年多快要到了~
还真是快啊
人生总是会有个“忙”
但自于会不会“忙”到“盲”了
可能性还蛮高呢~
心“忙”到“盲”了~
人生本来就不能享受~
哪有人是注定来到这世界享受的呢？
困难，总会找上你~
没有困难，就没有成就~
路还长，
就慢慢的走吧~
可是，
现在还可能有得选择‘慢“吗？
种种因素逼得你无选择~

小孩，成人，老人~

这就是 ”人生“吧~

爱.错

2010-09-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

爱没有对与错
但我确定这次我真的爱错~

胆小的自己
没有踏出第一步的勇气
只愿站在某个角落里，
看着你，
默默地守护着你。
我，不懂得如何爱你
我，没有那个勇气
对你说 “我爱你”
对不起，
我真的不能爱你
So Sorry
我想我真的不会爱你
对不起
是我不小心爱上了不应该爱的你
So Sorry
没资格的我爱上了我爱错的你

Had Fun --- =)

2010-09-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

Gonna start with my favourite cheezzzeeeee spaggety and macaroni
mm hmm =P
haha.....
(i think i had this as breakfast4 every weekend)
haha..never felt bored bout it....

( i cooked mysef ya =) ..haha)

On 10th Sept 2010,finally i had the chance2 get back2 times square again
haha...
with quen agnes (teng) n jing~
^.^
n i think i acted like "clown" in front of them...
haha..
biasa la tu~
i always look stupid n act stupid 2..
hehe...
1st thing~
bowling~
seriously...
i never bowl b4~
used2 watch people bowl..
(tak mau "pecah" finger nails"..hehe)
same case~
2day my thumb nail tear off oso..haha
n damn embarassing things ssss happen~
(seriously kinda blur 2day)
dah la masuk the wrong lane..
haha..
then i never expect the bowling ball was tat heavy...
my nerve like "tertarik"~
kinda pain from the start~
long time didnt play sports...
seriously...
long time...
my energy sudah hilang pun..haha...
n of coz...
i start my "bowling journey" with 1 mark ==
haha..
ok la
masuk longkang
banyak kali..hehe...
then the "embarassing " incident~
dun really wanna share it..damn malu leh~
teng n jing laughed soooooooooo "happily hor? =="...
then went4 lunch...
spend kinda lots time there
chit chatting~
but something really did distracted me during that time~
n tats y i keep looking out of the restaurant
(both of them didnt notice tat kut...haha)
then straight pergi leissure mall
continue gai gai summo
wah..tired....really really tired~
from morning till night..haha
anyway,i had fun 2day..hehe
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
CHONG WEI TENG (queen ^^)
WONG YI LYN (genius ^^)

planning strategy..haha

queen is "showing her talented skill" ...haha...with the "green" ball~

then the pink1..haha

"oh my dear finger nails...HOW DARE THE BALL TREAT ME LIKE THAT?! PANCUNG U IN2 HALF!!!! "
haha...

wah seh~
"queen's power" ..mata pun jadi got "power"~
queen's eyes got natural "spot light" de neh~ haha

cheng cheng cheng cheng! haha..

我甩一甩头发，保龄球立刻strike 啦！haha~

can u see the lalat flying around? hahahaha...

queen is keeping her "private socks" neh...hehe

check whether got DNA or bulu left inside or not...haha

CHENG CHENG CHENG CHENG!
THE QUEEN and THE FOOD !
^^

eating the chicken sooo "effortly"
haha...

tanglung made from recycled substances~
damn creative1~
pei fu pei fu

me n my naughty sis..
how dare she "shout" my name in the shopping mall
gosh ==

Say "cheeezzzeeeeeee"
^.^

I know "YOU" are coming soon

2010-08-25T05:08:00.000-07:00

TEST!
test test test test
test test test test test
(im not "testing'4 mic ya haha..^^)
hooosssshhhhhh~
all tests are coming~
although not being invited~
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
maths test clash with chemistry test~
haiz...
HAIZ~
maths?
like a bit blur bout it..
(didnt concentrate in class cuz tired ==)
yeeeeeeee........
soon presentations,assignments coming~
la la la...
cuz 1st sem going2 end in nov~
like soooo fast...nyeh...
but HOLIDAY!
haha...
coming VERY VERY SOON!
haha..after 2molo..wakakakaka...
but monday class again...
nyeh..GAMBATEH4 TEST!
^^
Mr. STRESS!
i know u will come to me
secara tidak langsung~
haha...
come ba~
i will "make use" of u ^^
GOOD LUCK YA=)

IM REALLY DAMN FED UP WITH YOU!

2010-08-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

DAMN!
i juz wanna randomly give a DAMN~
erm...
or i shud say 30% purposely give a damn...
HA.HA....
seriously...
1st time i can understand~
i tak kisah~
2nd time ,i sabar~
3rd time 4th time 5th time go ing on n on
seriously
I REALLY FED UP WITH YOU LA!
i don't even wanna talk with u at all~
not even a words...
logically i shouldn't do that~
but emotionally i so wanna do that...
WT H!
GET LOST!
damn geram n moody~

P1W1MAX WIGGY!!!

2010-08-14T05:08:00.000-07:00

My new P1W1MAX wiggy ^.^

I like the look of the box~
nice
^.^

~the cover~

as usual,
i went back2 my home sweet home during weekend~
^.^
then i saw there's a delivery parcels on my radio~
rupa rupa nya is p1w1max wiggy~
haha...
damn nice the design...
i like it...
my mum bought it without noticing me ==
haha...
but anyway, i knew she bought it 4 me...
thanks ya =) mummy
LOVE YA =)

conflict

2010-08-09T05:19:00.001-07:00

huuuuuusssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
finished 1 quiz 2day
BUT next test coming soon~
next wed~
yam gong
every week im being "tested"...
gosh~
really have 2 be consistent~
not like last time le....
it's time2 grow up lo~
life will get busier,harder later~
can't believe that im moving 2wards adult stage now...
seriously...
it's the stage that v had2 face the world~
the real real real world...
the rojak world...
no longer stay in my own "fantasy" world~
where the responsibilities is 0 , no worries ~
i 1der y there's some whom so desperate2 grown up...
haiz...
it's nice 2 stay in childhood~
but i know this kind of thinking,
really reflacts that im still kid~
immature duh~
but after 30 years,im reading this,
it will be different that time...
haha...
there's so lots of conflict occur
bit by bit...juz "bit"..haha
there's bio test 2moro..
but im not taking...
haha...
the only 1 in my unit who didnt take...
haha...
n tats y im so free2 blogging now...
bio~
haha...
the subject really tat doesnt suit me...
no matter i did how hard...
it's still remain the max level i can go~
maybe i really those boy-type...
haha..play with brain thinking...
not understand n memorizing part...
but sometimes i did really feel like,
im quite interested in bio...
BUT no testing me on it..haha
i read4 fun..hehe
but the most subject that i really felt sorry is
PHYSICS~
there's is a moment i was thinking
am i really so interested in phy?
am i suit4 that subject?
am i that desperate4 that subject?
talk bout interest~
yes, i am~
i am interested phy~
but im not sure that i suits4 tat anot...
but anyway,im not doing those "man-job'
haha...mechanical or EE stuff..haha
I GONNA BE CONCENTRATE!
CHEMICAL ENGINEER!
HERE I GO!!!!!!!!!!!

(i wonder y i so emo,juz bla bla bla..haha)

Hebe's new album gonna come out soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^.^

2010-08-05T06:38:00.000-07:00

<>

Hebe's new track~
i'm waiting4 her new album...
muack muack muack...
haha
waiting4 this "beautiful" voice
once again touch my heart...haha
juz heard part of the new track....
"you love me,i love you,he loves she,
she loves she, n she loves he n so on.."
haha..i dun remember the sequences,...hehe
her voice damn nice la...
haha..
no matter wat...
patience has it's limit....
811 CEPAT CEPAT CEPAT CEPAT CEPAT
COME COME COME COME COME COME!!!
hahaha.....

I have to be strong

2010-08-01T02:31:00.000-07:00

Chem test just end,
i've got my marks,
but not the paper,
the marks....
quite bad~
doesn't fullfil my requirement,
in my condition,
i gotta get more than that,
i have to~
i still wondering what's my mistake,
but i know i have2 work harder now~
i told my mom,
im still ok la..
but actually,
honestly,
im sad =(
if i continue like this,
my target will be far away from me~
i gotta reach my target,
if not,everything will be flung~
i will never want that happen...
never~
lecturer's teaching is going faster n faster,
n i got questions,
i've gotta wait or make appointment,
it's so different from last time,
haiz...
if like this,i oso 4get wat i wanna ask dah..
yish~
BE STRONG!
BE TOUGH!
that's what i said 2 myself,
coz i HAVE TO~
no other alternatives~
it's juz the begining...
improvement~
IMPROVEMENT!!!!!!!!!
appreciate every seconds~
apppreciate.....
GOOD LUCK
4 maths n ad maths test next ^^
GOOD LUCK!!!!!!
i really wish all my lecturers
will be like my ad maths lecturer
she's juz like miss chooi
n she's damn helpful~
i like this lecturer...
although she gave me a bad image b4..hehe
but after her class,i realized..
actually she's the best lecturer...
no matter what,she will try2 help...
duh~ chem!
im going2 work hard4 U!!!!!
GAM - BA - TEH
^______________________^

I really miss my high school time =)

2010-07-24T20:38:00.000-07:00

Sweetest moment in high school~
Gosh! Suddenly i got the kind of feel that wanna go back2 high school life...
cuz those times are the craziest moment i ever had..
the crazy things i did,
the crazy stuffs i made,
the crazy joke i've said..
haha..
that high school period
really accumulated lots of my crazy acts...
haha..
now,i think i cant do those crazy stuffs anymore..
cuz different surroundings,
different people,
different attitudes,
n of coz i hav2 change 2 my "abnormal" attitude..
haha..
but seriously,
people at uni
really different from those at secondary school
wonder y~
a bit "complicated"?
haha..maybe~
n that's y secondary school life was so FUN!
lame jokes,
"disturb" teachers,'
hanging out school compoud (especially 4th floor),
exams,
n lots of gila stuffs
were part of sweet memories of high school...
wah..damn miss it...
cuz now really realize actually high school life is
much more realxing than now...
wonder y during high school time,
always said busy la,tired la...
now is triple more tiring..
cuz more responsiblities4 us..
V have2 be responsible4 everything v did..
that's the "new" thing after high school~
^.^
But anyway, we have to grow up,
no longer that "childish" me..
no longer that "dumb dumb" me...
no longer that "stupid" me..
no longer that KID~
Memories are memories~
we just can "keep" it
but not to "go back"2 it...
5Sc1~ 09'
love ya ^.^

ReVeAL of my HOsTeL~

2010-07-09T19:09:00.000-07:00

One corner of the bathroom n previous owner's stuffs..
i can say that the previous owners were dirty fellow.. ==
like the 1st day i step in this hostel...
WTH! so dirty ==
cockroaches every where ...
nyeh..sienzzzz..

Previous owners' DNA!
Let's test who r they..
haha..
left segumpul of "bulu" ==

all the cockroach tahi..
smelly gila.. ==
like hundred years nobody living..

my dad cleaned it..that's y it's ok2 see now
if not,tsk tsk tsk...
full with siew keong tahi sssssssssssssssssss.....

buka everything in kitchen,so all the cockroaches can comeout
n KILL OF THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
really tak tahan..busuk gila... ==

a view from my hostel's window..
MYDIN's car park..

not my stuff..haha

not my stuff either..haha..

anyway,my hostel condisider clean dah..
cuz we cleaned it ...
haha..
all tak tahan...
hehe..
but few days ago,
the floor at living room cracked..
gosh..
the door cant open wide..
we have2 "squeezzzz" in...
mamamiya...
when the hostel department will come n fix it..
they r so irresponble...
service SUCKSSssss....
still wanna charge so much...
cacat.. ==

Mom! Love ya!

2010-07-05T06:57:00.000-07:00

Yeah!
Dear mummy bring mam mam(lunch) 4 me 2day..
haha..
damn happy n touched..
T.T
n of coz i won't cry when eating that lunch la..
haha...
tears r not suitable2 drop tat time..hehe
i have 2 keep it..
coz dun1 my mom2 worry..
i know she damn worrying bout me
if i cried in front of her,
she sure will ask me go home,
better dun study le..
she told me :
"if u really dun1 study,
can't cope, then don't study..
don't worry..i'll take care of u,
it's better than u stress up n tense up urself~"
if any1 heard this from their mother,
4 sure u wanna cry dah..
am i right?
my mom is damn cares bout me..
gosh...that makes me felt like wanna cry dah...
but whatever happens,
mom~
i will try my best..
i will do whatever i can do~
i hope i really won't let you down~
God,please bless me..
Good Luck 2 me~
Good Luck 4 now n future journey...
may god bless me =)

My room~

2010-07-03T21:27:00.000-07:00

my new bag n my cupboard n my room's door..haha

this is my bed..haha
like mess..hehe

I still can't pass my own "heart resistance"~ =(

2010-07-02T03:17:00.000-07:00

Baby BaBy Baby OH!
stop being a baby~
a being pampered baby....
haiz..
when i can be an independent girl?
when?
but my heart told me that i havent ready2 be independent yet...
u're not ready yet..
but i have to~
1st week ~
usually i behave like this..
like ns b4...
1st week oso feel like wanna go home..haha..
but at least i got some1 i knew there..
here totally not...
no1 i know..
all r strangers...
i had2 adapt2 the brand new environment...
wonder why..
my home sick already started at the 1st night...
when im alone,i started2 be homesick...
although not far away frm home,
n luckily not far away from home...
if not,im gonna cry every moment when im alone...
haha...
dunno la..
maybe im being pampered...
really being pampered...
half adult dah...
please la...
independent la....
im begging2 myself~
please la..please la...
HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dumb dumb~
y during ns u can use2 it？
y not now?
Grow up girl...
GAMBATEH!!!! ^.^
every road has it's hardships n difficulties...
hoping everythings will be OK~
GAMBATEH!!!

I am really really sorry~ but i really don't know what can I do~

2010-06-03T06:05:00.000-07:00

Real classes juz started this week~
Some class or subjects i might able2 understand
but some really not..
like bio..
i was blur 4 the whole class~
i wonder why..
this is damnnnnn worrying~
what's wrong with me?
gosh~
the expenses quite high...
n i still have no ideas bout how2 jimat yet~
transport fee,this la that la..
soon textbooks fee..gosh
gonna spend few hundreds on it..
man,i dun1 my parents spend a lot..
really ...haiz..but i still dunno how yet~
n everyday the timetable were like tergantung...
hard2 fix yet...
i know i gave a lot of troubles2 my parents~
I'M SORRY~ really really sorry~
i don't want2..but terpaksa~
haiz..
i really dun1 them 2 be more tired..
they were stressed up..
i know~
as their children,
i dun1 them2 tensed up...
haiz..but i can't do anything yet..
haiz..please la..
grow up la~
what the hell happen2 myself?
grow up please...
stop being like a pampered child...
GROW UP!!!!!!

Stop be in your Past Glory

2010-05-29T23:41:00.000-07:00

Stop be in your past glory~
YES! i agree that..
Part of speech from UTAR president..haha
i agreed what he said~
I should let all the past go away~
Don't get "stucked" in it~
A new begining starts..
Get ready for the new journey..
The long journey2 go..
A new life,A new environment,A new way
AND A NEW ME!
haha..
it's time2 "transform"
or i should say - develop..
haha..
Like usual,there's a kind of reject feeling in me for new environment
I knew it will disappear soon..haha
foooo~
juz hope i can use2 it as fast as possible...
Be matured la...
i know im not..haha
sometimes,i really felt like
im still being pampered..
i hav2 grow up..
i know I HAVE TO~
knowing 2 solve problems myself...
that's the way human beings should be...
GROW UP!
GROW UP!
(but i know i won't grow " tall " anymore~ haha..)

Seriously... Im very blue now --

2010-05-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

Honestly,
I felt dissappointed,
I felt angry,
I felt sad ~
Although it's a day after i knew it,
although it's not the 1st moment i knew it,
but now only i felt a kind of awful feelings~
I know what i felt deep inside my heart actually,
it's really really discomfort at all...
hard2 describe..
but i really dun like tat kind of feelings~
n it makes me feel sad...
really really sad...
till there is a lots of "WHY?!!! " in my mind~
why,why,why,why,why n why~
is it my luck is not good at all?
or is it im not qualified actually?
it's my fate~
n i have2 face it 2~
there's nothing i can do~
sometimes juz tried2 console myself by saying,
it's not your luck~
maybe there's another good thing waiting4 u...
actually it's juz a kind of way2 console myself,
in the other way of saying,
actually juz "cheating myself"~
haiz..haiz..haiz..
n why,why,why,why n why~
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzz~
I'm fed up la~
haiz...
really don't like that kind of feelings now~
but i know that kind of feelings won't disappear in a short time~

射手座-Sagittarius

2010-05-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

射手座
　　
　　
　　射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。
　　
　　她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。
　　
　　你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。
　　
　　她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。
　　
　　她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
　　
　　她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。
　　
　　她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。
　　
　　她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。
　　
　　
　　别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。
　　
　　她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。
　　
　　如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。
　　
　　千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
　　
　　
　　那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。
　　
　　她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
　　
　　因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.
　　
　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
　　
　　在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。
　　
　　她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

SuSh1 D@Y~

2010-05-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

Rainy Days..pls go away~
Rainy days..pls go away~
haha..
rainy day 2day..
gosh~ rain4 soooooo many hours~
when im back,
i was completely wet..haha
bcoz of "banjir"
i have2 take long way2 walk back ==
n of coz not "swim" back..haha
went2 sushi king this afternoon
with li ping,wei wen,sue teng
n of coz with the 2 teachers
miss spongebob n miss amboi...
haha..
both of them were late
n the funniest is..
miss spongebob thought the "meeting" is canceled
== juz bcoz tak reply msg
haha...
funny~
then eat+chit-chat,
li ping n sue teng left early...
haha..
then left 4 of us~
can c tat beh is tired..haha
she "travel" 2day wat..haha
then chit chat a lot la..
haha..damn fun~
n funny~
till i saw other customer look at me,
when i know i laugh2 loud..haha
shhhh~
i havent tell any1 yet..hehe
n now v know actually teachers got part-time job2
u know wat is tat?
It's ~ fb "investigator"
haha..they "observe" their students in fb..hehe
luckily i dah graduate.. XD
then teacher sent me..thx
n im not "jual mahal" la...
juz dun1 menyusahkan teacher la..haha
then of coz
WET!
the road summo banjir..gosh~
==
haha..
im already a bit not well this few days~
walk under rain summo..haha
but tat's great 2 walk under rain..
long time didnt do tat..
since i left ns..haha
cuz ns usually walk in rain..haha..
anyway,
FUN 2day~
next time will be at sushi "Queen"
(if can)..haha

Genting

2010-04-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

~LET'S THE JOURNEY START~

Yo~ the the journey begins~

SMILE~ ^^

Waiting4 our turn~

say cheese~ ^^

fail2 take the whole spaceshot..haha

peace~ (my finger bengkok-the middle1) ..haha

BUMPER BOAT!!!! haha...fun!!! drank some water..=.=" salty de..haha

ready4 heart attack..haha..really got a bit heart attack feel playing this~

"yi zhi shen gong"

yi zhi shen gong2

bear+ beh + me..haha

WET!!!! WET!!!! + COLD~

~YAY~

waiting..haha..wanna "big swing" ?

ladies n gentlemen..please wear ur life jacket properly..gonna start soon..haha

peace!!!

PRECIOUS PHOTO!
others r not allow2 take photo in this bus..
luckily we are lucky..haha
"dikecualikan"
lucky 2..haha

gonna start~
u spin my head right round right round~
haha..
finally,beh feel wanna vomit..haha
cuz i spinned 2 much..hehe

in the bus~
2 xiao zha bo..
nothing1 do..
cuz the bus sit damn discomfortable~

MCDONALD!!

PARIS TOWER
(genting,made in malaysia ...haha)

both of us kononnya in paris..haha

want some coffee?

beh dun1 take photos with these "colourful" umbrella..
although i request her2 do so
T.T

WOW! here we go~
broom brroooooommmm~
mat rempit..haha

me+beh+zhi you nv shen

she loves the worm soooo much..haha

90cm++

90cm ngam ngam..haha

purposely take photo with the italian guy..haha
tat boat slow gila..haha

our racing trackk~

do u believe tat? haha..
v race at this track?

of coz not la..haha
although i know i drove fast gila tat day..haha

F1~

"BUBBLE" amoi..haha

F1 race..waiting4 tat..

Fairy wheel....
hehe..i know quite childish...haha
very short aje..

again bubble moi..haha,,
she juz finish "hair-conditioning"

I WANT RACE CAR LA!!
when is our turn??????!!!!

DINASOURLAND~

r she rapping? haha..
of coz-----------
NO..
haha...

mamamiya...im scared..haha

take photo from high peak best gila..haha

any1 doing their concert there?

yo!

going back~

dun take my photo plz...haha

purposely take this...
cuz they "block" my view..haha
T.T
i wanna take tat statue photo la..
so zho deng..haha

on the way HOME~

wanna go home liao..T.T

here we are again..on the bus2 go home

beh look "terpaksa"=.= haha

wanna go home liao.. T.T

go home go home
im going back home
^^

BYE!!! GENTING~

Last Week~

2010-04-02T21:24:00.000-07:00

Last sun went for sum1's wedding dinner,the most fav wedding i went ever..haha..
nice hitz n nice food.. ^^

im drunk tat night..haha..dah sikit tak waras dah..hehe

red wine.. i think i drank more tat 4 glass tat night..haha

SHARK FIN!!!! haha..1st bowl..this shark fin damn nice..

Full with real "FINS" ...not just the "flour"..hehe

2nd bowl..haha..

chiang! chiang! finished ! haha

looks disgusting right? haha..juz mushroom~

the only dishes tat i didn't eat tat night..hehe

2nd glass~ ^^

i think i really drunk..haha.till the melon cube fell in2 the wine..
MY WINE AH!!!! ^^
i took another1 after that ..haha

dare2 eat tat "wine - melon cube?
haha..

dunno how many glass already..haha

yo! (my mum so happy)..haha

RED WINE + COCA COLA

1. red wine

2. COCA COLA

SEKALI GUS FINISHED!!!! haha..

THE END of eating session..^^

When we almost went back, "POM!" luckily i dun have heart attack..haha..
Juz in front of us,fireworks show was juz in front of us...
so close..
luckily sempat2 take photos...

~ 19 M@R ~

2010-03-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

me + beh + michelle

me + beh
(beh with fluoredcent spec,limited edition tu ^^)

beh with her "drink shake"
when she did tat i pun dunno...

beh + me + ms hidayat + michelle

Yesterday hang out with beh,bio teacher n li ping
FINALLY!
finally 3 of us can hang out 2gether.haha
even bio teacher pun shocked tat tis is the 1st time 3 of us hang out 2gether..
haha..
this really shows tat 3 of us really bzy with our studies during scul..haha..kononnya
1 thing tat i really DISSATISFIED is LRT
stupid service
there written sri petaling
but it is ampang line
cacat betul
made us went in lrt n came out again twice..
at last,michelle's mum had2 fetch us ..hehe..
very paisey ^^
then went2 MV
went4 lunch at pizza hut
omg,full til my stomach overloaded..hehe..
then walked2 red box..
YES!!! sumthing attracted my attention..
haha..S.H.E!!!
brochure with S.H.E!!!
haha..
then went in room 8..
of coz,hav2 sing..
n of coz,teacher hav2 sing oso..haha..
(teacher's singing not bad o..^^)
nice day yesterday..really had fun..^^
hope next time will hang out 2gether again..^^

My NS life~ ^^

2010-03-12T18:31:00.000-08:00

CHARLIE's marching team..^^

(i look so numb..haha..)

Ucie + me + Fara

the last night tat v spent 2gether..

i think tat time was around 1am
every1 was sleepy n my eyes damn bengkak..haha

We were eating roti jala (my favourite)

n v share 1 bowl 2gether..

so kesian right? haha...

juz kidding..it's a kind of joy ^^

of coz the violent person is me..haha

pay revenge2 the trunk...

actually im not punching chew hwa..

hehe..technical problem..

my cute dorm warden..haha..

can't believe v can catch this photo of her..

muahahaha... XD

this photo quite funny right?

actually v juz finish "jumping"
haha..

HIP HIP HOORAY!!!! LAST EVENING2 GO!!! ^^

She "balted" the tree..

cabut all the tree's bulu

pity the tree..hahahah

mamamiya...

i believe i can fly..^^

i believe i can jump very high..

(but the fact was not like tat..haha)

continue my violence..haha...

actually v r training TTS in dorm..

no comment bout this photo..haha..

me+hwa+ling+hui+yen+yong

2 xiao zha bo..haha..

me n yen...

2 monkeys in dorm...

WA-TER!!!!! haha...

kononnya tau kung fu tu..^^

the only 3 chinese in my dorm..

yau+yong+yen

3 Y's..haha..

yong going4 indian dance..haha..

actually is pocho pocho

wanna fight?

me n "miss mo(mo jie)"

haha..

in tokong..

b4 chinese new year

if im not mistaken..

cuz my hair still short..^^

5 of us in tokong!!!

in front of the big peacock..

damn nice ^^

who's skin is darker?

haha..

at the end of ns,mine is darker T.T

haha..

PEACE!!!!

of coz wan peace la..

in tokong ma..haha..

jaga tatatertib leh..^^

Yo!!! yo!!! yo!!!

it's 5 of us again..

from company CHARLIE..

have an ice cream during hot day is dammnnnn nice!!!

Ling! where u looking at? aiyoyoyo.. concentrate leh..

me n yong..

she force me2 take this photo ..T.T

haha...

me n ker wei...

2 wei's here..haha

say cheese!!!!!!

Can't believe i had finish my ns training..

seems like time was rushing all the time..

sweet memories n "sweat" memories will always on my mind..

the time we've been through,the tough time we faced

i will alwayz keep them in my memory..

Thanks4 everything..

I'll miss u guyz alwayz..^^

KEEP IN TOUCH!
!

SPM results day~

2010-03-11T00:31:00.000-08:00

Juz went back2 smkcp this morning!!!
4 sure,i was nervous like hell...
the moment i stepped in2 school compound...
i saw many people waiting4 their results...
everyone was nervous nervous nervous...
when li ping came,she said i got good result..
i was ?????????
"Betul ke tak?"
wondering...can't believe it...
then walk in2 foyer...
walao..a "mystery" gurl with kononnya sunglasses =D
walked 2wards me..of coz she is beh la..haha..
if im not mistaken,she congrates me2...
that makes me more nervous...
then walked 2 5sc1 counter...
teacher was giving those certificatesssssss.....
my god..so many cert..juz left spm cert(main1)..
wait n wait n wait....
FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'VE GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!
then what class teacher did really makes me feel a little paisey..hehe..
met all the teachers...
n my mouth non stop talking..
til i felt really tired..haha..
quite happy that i could met them again...
THANKS2 ALL MY TEACHERS!!!
LUV U ALL!!!! <3
Congrates 2 those getting flying colours results in spm...
n 4 those whom not satisfy with the results...
please don't be sad...
be optimistic...
there's alwayz have rainbow after rained...
stand up again after u cried..
continue fight n hardwork4 the future!
GAMBATEH!!!

Back2 camp again.. T.T

2010-02-15T15:19:00.000-08:00

2day i hav2 return2 camp again.. T.T

so fast~

still not yet finish collect angpao leh..

geram betul..

yesterday packing..

WALAO A!!!

my luggage much more heavier than the day i depart.. XD

macam masuk stok baru je.. XD

after go back2 camp..

v have gun teori session..haha..

M16 !!! I'M COMING!!! ^^

wish EVERYONE HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

MEET U GUYZ AGAIN IN MARCH 14th...

sayonara~

Some of the photos.. ^^

2010-02-12T18:17:00.000-08:00

My company's flag (i drew it..^^)

- me n my koperal -

-me n my ketua bilik-

yo! ^^

yoyo!

in tokong~

I'M BACK!!!!!

2010-02-12T06:47:00.000-08:00

HOORRRRRAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!
I AM BACK!!!
YES!!!
BACK2 MY OWN WORLD!!!!
2day i was waiting soooooo "patiently" at camp..
cant believe im the last to go back among all friends..
oh my god...
morning i was soooo damn excited2 go back...
at last, i went back..yayayay!!!!
I MISS ALL MY FRIENDSSS!!!! MUACKKKSSS.... <3
haha..
juz arrived home,i had2 rush4 my "dating"..haha
my mom also scold me bcuz of tat..hehe..
once i meet u guys,i was thinking: "LONG TIME NO SEE!!! MISS U ALL SO MUCH!!"
haha..got a kind of feeling tat wanna hug u all guys..haha..
then go mam mam lo..hehe..
non stop talking..chatting..hehe..
(especially yao kuan) XD
seems like long time didn't chat..haha
Every1 becomes prettier..
except me..haha..
kulit sudah gelap..mamamiya...
Thanks4 2day..
wish everybody
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
(P/s: rmbr giv angpao ^^)

FAREWELL

2010-01-01T14:33:00.001-08:00

BYE BYE!!!!!
^^

LAST DAY!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

2009-12-31T19:54:00.000-08:00

Last day to be in KL..
2ml hav2 leave.. T.T
but now im sick la.. ==
zha dao..
anyway,HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~
wish everyone will have their dreams come true in year 2010..
especially SPM students 2009..
haha..
see u guys in march...
yesterday arrive home late + sleep late..0.0
so,2day also woke up late la..XD
around 12 noon baru wake up..
haha..now must sleep puas puas nya..haha..
of course,yesterday watched fireworks..
but felt like same la..
everytime also like that de..
nothing special ..hehe..
although woke up late,but still feel tired..haiz..
later hav2 pack my luggage..
still not yet finish packing...
scare this1 left tat1 left..i pun pening...
i think my luggage quite big..hehe..
hope 2ml tat wun catch people attention..haha..
very paisey..hehe..
S.H.E coming in march...
4 their concert..^^
S.H.E is the one Concert@ KL
6-3-2010 Stadium Merdeka
Let's support them..hehe..
although i can't go.. .T.T
haha..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
gonna miss u guys so much
+ gonna miss on9 so much
+ gonna miss S.H.E so much..^^

few hours 2 go..year 2009 is going2 END!!!!

2009-12-31T01:40:00.001-08:00

6 HOURS TO COUNTDOWN...
YEAR 2009 is going2 end!!!!!! yay!!!
6....................
5.......................
4........................
3.........................
2............................
1......................................

What a BIG "surprise" !!!!!!

2009-12-26T07:25:00.000-08:00

Oh my god...
after prom,my comp kena virus...
i would say "stupid"....
i think it's the present frm santa
since it's around christmas too..XD
obviously,hav2 format all...
All the pictures,songs,files were GONE!!!!!
alamak...
i tak da back up de leh... T.T
all the "memories" gone...
fine...
summo hav2 keluar $$$$ to format leh...
kononnya need2 buy licensed window...
format once hav2 buy once...
fu yoh...few hundred each time leh...
my wallet "berlubang besar" lo....
anyway,wish every1 merry christmas n a happy new year.. ^^
next sat im going4 ns.. T.T
hehe..actually quite excited bout it..
i hav chance2 feel how2 hold M16...XD
"senjata berbahaya " tu...haha..
"precious" chance..hehe...
oh my god,it's like happened so fast...
prom sudah past,christmas pun sudah past..
my comp pun sudah rosak..
dompet pun sudah berlubang besar..haha..XD
seems like this blog will "fat mou"4 bout 3 months..XD
i think im excited bout going2 ns...
now already packing the stuffs...
hehe..still no idea wat2 bring...
juz hope tat day i will remember 2 take my ic(i always 4got2 bring ic)
haha..year 2009 is going2 end...
Wish every1 is going2 hav a happy year 2010~
every1 get GOOD results4 SPM!!!!!!
all A1!!!! haha...
S.H.E is coming2 m'sia in march 2010...
haiz..seems like i "terpaksa" let it go.. T.T
even ne-yo's concert also can't attend..haiz....
kesian kesian...
juz hav2 "enjoy" my life in ns..hehe..

I WANNA GO!!!!!

2009-12-17T02:51:00.000-08:00

Can anyone tell me how can i go2 their concert?
I'm still in ns during tat time~
BUT I WANNA GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y they come so early?
y can't they postpone 1 more week...yer...
I WANNA GO!!!!!
S.H.E IS THE ONE!!!!!!!

Last one to go~

2009-12-13T04:16:00.000-08:00

LAST PAPER 4 SPM TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!
Final...final..final~
It's chinese paper...
im weak at tat...
but im still lazy 2 do revision...
oh my god~
already in holiday mood~
no mood2 study.... ==
yam gong~
i dun1 get bad result4 my chinese....
T.T
anyway~
GOOD LUCK 4 chinese paper tomorrow~~!!!
GOOD LUCK!!!!!

Killing weapons~

2009-12-12T05:15:00.000-08:00

juz bought a pair of high heel shoes....
"high" enough~
maybe it does give u a temporary "satisfaction"..
u will feel u're tall when u're wearing it~
but after u walked 4 a while..
oh my god~
ur legs is cramped....
this is what happen2 me 2day..haha...
1st time wearing high-heel shoes~
n it's killing me... T.T
susahnya..
try2 walk in house...
== ...macam itik la...haha..XD
my legs felt pain after that....
seems like i hav2 do "latihan" 4 that...
haha...
if not, i'm going2 be "famous" ~
4 falling down due 2 body imbalancing~
haha..
juz hope i can learn2 balance myself with that killing weapon...
^^
High-heel shoes = Killing weapon ^^

ADD MATHS!!!

2009-11-25T01:24:00.000-08:00

WHAT A BIG SURPRISE!!!
it's so hard2 do the questions....
T.T
the questions were like using teknik "kejutan" ....
OH MY GOD!!!!
the phrase tat i could say...
O.o the expression tat shown on my face....
feel like wanna yell for "miss chooi,HELP ME!!!"
haha....
add maths paper 1 was ok...
but add maths paper 2 is the "climax"....
OH MY GOD!!!!
CHAM CHAM CHAM LO!!!!
kah kit summo said wanna commit suicide 4 the paper..
haha...
anyway.wish other paper wun be so DIFFICULT!!!!
T.T
n thanks li ping 4 the present..
THANK U! wish u can get straight A's in spm ^^

S.H.E 091109

2009-11-10T18:02:00.001-08:00

S.H.E-091109-

2009-11-10T05:49:00.001-08:00

S.H.E 081109

2009-11-09T16:43:00.000-08:00

S.H.E!!!

2009-11-08T06:21:00.000-08:00

S.H.E arrived Malaysia on Sat..
I went2 "visit" them on Sun..
They leave Malaysia 2day..T.T
Good NEW! their concert will be on next year february..yay!
Really wanna pray im not in ns tat time...
I got their signature..hehe..
1 sad thing is HEBE DIDNT LOOK AT ME!
n i wonder y i acted crazy in front of Ella..
Siao siao...dunno y...
n got "syok sendiri" gang...
really pui fok them...
no matter wat,they can syok sendiri...
anyway, maybe bcuz of hoping2 get S.H.E attraction...
S.H.E FOREVER!

Selina

Hebe

Ella

S.H.E-UKimoNo

Me n Dragonball..haha

Me n Hebe..^^ (syok sendiri)

They acted funny on the stage..

O.o

That's Ella..haha..

Yeeeee.....

Selina: Im hungry la...(haha)

Selina: Is there any nasi lemak? ^^

Selina: Hi! Im Selina....^^

o.O..watching wat?

Hebe looks Gorgeous

Pimples..haha..

Osim

S.H.E

Ella:huh?

Cheezzzzzzeeeeeeeeeee...

On the stage

Ya!
Happy Ending~

Nearer n nearer~

2009-11-06T05:04:00.000-08:00

It's getting closer n closer....
time past time...
it's more blank n blank...
wondering...
am i doing the right thing?
still wondering..
still blur bout tat...
but wat should i do....
juz blessing4 it?
do i hav2?
how should i get it started?
should i speak it out?
maybe juz shut up n do wat i've suppose 2 do...
wish everything will be fine...
no more hesitation...
no more....

S.H.E ~

2009-11-05T05:08:00.000-08:00

~ 5SC1 ~

2009-11-02T16:52:00.000-08:00

~ Memoriessss of 5Sc1 ~

^^

5Sc1

~examssssss~

Kuan,wat so attracting? ^^

wat's so funny?

wat is lynn doing with her hair?

KFC ? McDonald? Uhmm..:p can't decide..^^

Concentrate in writing "letters"..^^Yeah..finish reading..^^

O.o Bully?

Ya!

Ketua kelas~

shy ke?

Discuzzing bout the "perjanjian"?

DEAL!!

Sooooo Terpaksa~

Perjanjian RAMBUT 2009(tiada penguatkuasaan pun ^^)

Say "CHEEEEZEEEEE..."

Got any gold on my book? O.o

Pn.Rosmawati

A king wanna write on a paper? ^^

a bit like constipation..haha..XD

cute tak?

Aster,no face jumpa orang ke? ^^

Yeah!!! I GOT 100%...

Battlefield in exam..^^

Yeah...(secara terpaksa)

Ee leng y so emo? ^^

copper? voltaic cell? force? ^^

Hey,dun take photo when im eating..

aiya,dun care la..continue my conversation..^^

Examssss

FINISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

E.N.D

E.N.D

2009-10-25T05:43:00.000-07:00

Didnt realize tat the contest ends 2day..
== ..haiz..
woke up early juz too vote4 my sis...
then,
(voting period is closed)
?
wat?
i thought "until" 25 oct 09?
i think they muz b mistaken bout the date..==
anyway,thanks 4 voting my sis...
thanks all those whom voted my sis...
THANK YOU VERY MUCH..^^
arrigato gozaimazu...haha..
waitin4 the result...
may the god bless my sis la...
haha...
^^

VOTE!!!! VOTE!! VOTE!!!!

2009-10-18T17:59:00.000-07:00

Please vote 4 my sis....
haha...thx...
a gurl with pyjamas...^^

http://www.nuffnang.com.my/slurpeelicious/gallery/?Start=315&CurrentPage=36&NumberofPages=10&TotalNumberofRecords=85&FormSubmit=&txtKeyword=&selSearchScope=EndUser

Yam Gong!!!

2009-10-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

Juz came back from UCSI..
Because of?
akauns...
5 hours class...
i juz realized my akauns is damn "zero"...
although teacher taught it b4...
BUT i can't remember at all...
MY GOD!!!
SPM is coming soon la...
damn nervous....
but i'm still lazy... T.T
What should i do with my akauns?
God....
Worrying....
2day is the 1st day using my new specs...
Yam Gong! my eyes very pain la...
wonder why...
maybe it doesn't suit me...
my eyes felt not comfortable at all...
lagi pakai lagi sakit....
yam gong....
Next week still hav2 go2 UCSI4 akauns...
Need 2 prepare 2 bottles of coffee..haha..
anyway,S.H.E Hong Kong concert juz end...
they looked DIFFERENT!
haha....
but it's a little 2 over....
AND!!!!!

PLEASE VOTE4 ME at Slurpee licious contest..THANKS!
http://www.nuffnang.com.my/slurpeelicious/

I want it BACK!!

2009-10-09T05:09:00.000-07:00

( Lee Hom!!!! haha...He replaced S.H.E.. T.T)

WHERE IS MY SPECS?!!!! T.T
already gone...yish!
2day went4 a new spectacles....
my god ..cost me rm300++...
man...almost twice than the previous1...
i 1der where i lost it...
T.T baby cum back2 me(utada)~ ^^
Luckily my sight still okay..hehe...
haiz...where is my specs....?
actually its ok without using the specs...
but..yer..scare spm my eyes cacat...
read the questions wrongly..(CHOI!!!!x3)
haha...
hope the previous specs will cum back2 me..
hehe...although not its not stylish at all...
haha....Then i saw Bausch n Lomb!
HELLO! where is S.H.E?
nvmd la...is Lee Hom replaced them...
it's okay...hehe..
still got a handsome guy2 see...haha..
Waiting4 my new specs....hehe...
1der wat kind of cacat look i'll have ..hehe

R.I.P

2009-10-05T05:31:00.000-07:00

(last photo of her)

she already gone~
i juz received a call this afternoon...
i can't recognised the voice...
she wanna inform mum tat some1's mum is dead...
i was like "huh?"
"who is tat?"
i called mum n inform her...
mum told me whom the woman meant is my grandaunt...
"WHAT?" i askedback my mum..
i pun shocked.."how could it be?"
she was fine last month...
how can this happen?
she had alzheimer's disease...
she was 4getful....
i know..she might 4get who am I...
but i know she did remember who am i b4 she had the disease...
when i was small(around 4), sometimes she will stay at my grandma's house4 few days..
n i will spend my time play with her2...
i think im closer with her than my grandpa..hehe..
after i studied in secondary scul,
i think i seldom talked n chatted with her...
since i seldom see her also...
now she had left us...
i think this would be a good thing2 her...
cuz she will not have suffered from her illness anymore...
she seemed suffering these years...
mooncake festival juz past,
i think she muz be enjoying her last mooncake festival
n leave this world peacefully~

MAY GOD BLESS HER IN HEAVEN~

6s Gatherin~

2009-09-21T04:48:00.000-07:00

2day went4 primary scul gatherin....
much more people going than last time..
hehe...
n saw sum "long time no c" primary scul classmate...
n i think most of us were quite "shock"...
when v saw sum1...hehe..
my 1st feeling is~
"who is tat?"
see clearer...
my god !
is one of the classmate...
"y so horrible?"
"y so lala?"
most of us were shocked...
i think so...
earings everywhere...
so punk..
a bit scary...
hehe...
i think quite a number of the classmate stopped studying...
haiz....
kesian...
wonder y i felt tat..hehe...
went4 bowling...
but i didnt play...
cuz "jimat"...
already almost bankrupt..
hehe...
but still enjoy watching them playing...
then go4 "where got ghost?"
Very funny...
but the worse thing is i dun understand Hokkien...
(although i am a Hokkien) haha..
quite fun 2day..hehe..

{{{{{{ GaThErIng}}}}}}} ^^

~Hope she will be fine~

2009-09-18T03:06:00.000-07:00

I juz knew the reason she stopped teaching...
it was a long time ago...
when i was about 11...
now i only know why...
She taught me since i was around 6...
she was very strict2 me...(i think so)
everytime doing exercise,
when i moved my head a bit,
she thought me wanna copy answer(but actually not)
she sure will ask me turn back my head..
haha...
i still remember...
but she met an accident...
she hav wear a kinda sunglasses since tat...
but i thought she was recovered...
suddenly.after a few week of tat,
She stopped teaching my class...
i was wondering why...
then,she stopped teaching...
she asked bout the new teacher..
how was it?
izzit ok?
i remembered tat...
it was the last word i talked2 her...
recently, i juz knew the reason she stopped...
Bcuz of tat accident,
she was facing memory problem...
Tat's y she hav2 stop teaching...
Feel so SAD...
bcuz of her,
my english is quite good during primary scul....
when she stopped teaching,
my english result dropped quite a lot...
i think she did affect me a lot...
i wonder where is she now...
many years past...
now i'm almost finish my secondary scul....
the last time i saw her is around 11...
i hope she is fine now...
my mom said she might lost her memory now...
SO SAD~
will she remember this student?
but,im sure i will remember her...
thanks4 ur teaching~

2009-09-17T02:13:00.000-07:00

i juz took my accounts p2 n seni paper 2day...

accounts paper is dammmmnnnnn hard...

i 4got wat i read...

every questions like doesn't make sense2 me dis time...

T.T

no matter wat i've try2 do...

still cannot...

the figure different 2 much... T.T

Totally hav no confident wif this paper this time...

hope it wun fail... T.T

feel so sad...

haiz...

anyway,

Happy Raya 2 all the malays..

haha..

HOLIDAY!!!!

老婆的最後一條短信‏

2009-09-12T18:55:00.000-07:00

當老公的人，要仔細看一看嚕！
當老婆的人，傳給你老公看看！
小心別真的流淚嚕！老婆的最後一條短信。看到你會流淚。
妻子是個小尾巴，我走到哪裡她都要問到哪裡。
我厭煩，她卻樂此不疲。
可是，這個小尾巴卻在那個下著大雨的深夜永遠消失了……。
我的心情非常難過，內心充滿了內疚和痛楚，我無法原諒自己的過錯。
結婚那天，老婆用買戒指的錢給我買了一款手機。
那天夜裡，我們兩人在被窩裡一遍遍地調試著手機的響鈴。
我們覺得，生活就像這鈴聲，響亮、悅耳，充滿著憧憬和希望。
從那天開始，我常常接到她的電話：「老公，下班了買點菜回家。」
「老公，我想你，我愛你。」「老公，晚上一起去媽媽家吃飯。」
我的心裡十分溫暖。有一次，我忘了給手機充電，又恰好陪長官應酬到半夜才回到家，推開房門一看，我發現老婆早已哭紅了眼睛。原來從我下班時間開始，她每隔一刻鐘就打一次電話，總以為發生了什麼意外，後來每隔十分鐘打一次，直到我推開門，她才放下話筒。我對老婆的小題大做不以為然：「我又不是小孩子，還能出什麼事情？」老婆卻說有一種預感，覺得我不接電話就不會回來了，我拍拍老婆的腦袋，笑了：「傻瓜！」不過，從此以後我一直沒有忘記及時給手機充電。後來我升了職，有了錢，手機換了好幾個。突然有一天，我想起欠著老婆的那枚戒指，便興沖沖地拉她去銀樓。可是她又猶豫了，說：「白金鑽戒套在手指上有什麼用啊？給我買個手機好嗎？我可以經常跟你聯繫。」於是我就給她買了一個手機。那天，我們一個在臥室，一個在客廳，互發著短信息，玩得高興極了。一天夜裡，我和同事到朋友家玩牌，正玩在興頭上，老婆打來了電話：「你在哪裡？怎麼還不回家？」「我在同事家裡玩牌。」「你什麼時候回來？」「待會兒吧。」輸了贏，贏了輸，老婆的電話打了一次又一次。外面下起了大雨，老婆的電話又響了：「你究竟在哪裡？在幹什麼？快回來！」「沒告訴你嗎？我在同事家玩，下這麼大的雨我怎麼回去！」「你告訴我，你在什麼地方，我來接你！」「不用了！」一起打牌的朋友都嘲笑我「妻管嚴」，一氣之下，我把手機關了。天亮了，我輸得兩手空空，朋友用車子把我送回家，不料家門緊鎖，老婆不在家。就在這時，電話響了，是岳母打來的，電話那頭哭著說：「她深夜冒著雨出來，騎著機車，帶著雨傘去你同事家找你，找了一家又一家，路上出了車禍，再也沒有醒來。」我打開手機，只見上面有一條未讀留言：「你忘記了嗎？今天是我們的結婚週年紀念日呀！我去找你了，別亂跑，我帶著傘！」她走在找我的路上，永遠不會再醒來了。我淚流滿面，一遍遍看著這條短信息，我覺得那一個晚上我輸了整個世界。老婆去世已經3個月，可我仍然無法從噩夢中醒來，我不想工作，整曰消沉萎靡，並且一次次想到了陪她而去……。轉貼此文章的目的，就是要大家都學會珍惜！不要讓愛你的人受到一絲一毫的傷害！不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生！如果，你感動了，就請傳一下，不要讓它沉下去。讓更多的人看到它！讓更多的人學會珍惜！ ]

CANCELED!!!

2009-09-11T03:39:00.000-07:00

I was shocked 2day...
Accounts teacher suddenly gone mad...
she was damn damn angry~
she CANCELED ALL HER SEMINAR N BENGKEL!!!
My God!!!
SPM LEH!!!!!!!
suddenly canceled~
all was cacat now!
she was being complaint by student's parents...
complaint bout wat...extended class,menyusahkan je...bla bla bla....
who's tat?
XXXX cacat betul...
now all the class canceled...
REALLY MENYUSAHKAN NOW!!!
XXIOT! if u can't go4 the class,juz SHUT UP N STOP CLASS!
complaint complaint complaint~
menyusahkan rakyat je!
wat can i do now?
suddenly change my accounts teacher?
God!!! almost 2 years!
suddenly change...die~ :P
haiz..spm coming soon...
how?
they r xxxxs~
yish~
but teacher really Angry this time...
my god!
wat she did really 4 students' benefit...
wonder wat all the foolssssss think?!!!!
MENYUSAHKAN RAKYAT JE!!!!!
mangkuk!!!!
Gotta think how 2 settle my accounts problem again~
cacat betul...
geram betul!

The 1 academy~

2009-08-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

2day juz went4 competition wif caciong
at the one academy~
there r quite a lot of contestants
they r really good in art
the winner ~
4 sure is
none of us...haha
i felt so sleepy in the morning
cuz yesterday went4 dinner
at prince hotel
it was so boring
boring til i can do much lame things~
haha...

~ chocolate marshmallow~

~chocolate fountain~ ^^

~toilet~

draw on the glass
(using chocolate)

draw on glass

-_-

draw on plate

draw everywhere

Photos-Cameron Trip (Cont~)

2009-08-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

~strawberry stairs~

~ my god! so many "bulu" ^^~

~cameron highland~

~caciong!!! haha ^^~

~Tea Farm~

~cactus~

~me n the tortoise~

Photos4 cameron trip

2009-08-26T05:08:00.000-07:00

Cactus again

Trip2 Cameron

2009-08-25T05:54:00.000-07:00

Juz came back from The National Mathematics Marathon 2009
for sure, the winner is ~ not us...hehe
other scul was great~ n the questions were "great"2...
yesterday juz came back from cameron highland~
it's a nice trip n "freezing trip"...
I went there since Sat~
It's raining whole sat...
At night, i can see the "mist" coming out from my mouth while breathing~
I was sick tat time~
but i recovered when i reached cameron4 a day~
luckily~ haha
v rented a bangalow there~
not bad...
the floor is so damn cold...
hehe..like standing on ice~
the weather is super duper cold~
1st day do nothing~
2nd day, i recovered~
GO SHOPPING~
haha..
bought many many cactus~
saw many many cactus,flowerssss,strawberries~
I bought many strawberry lollipops...
cuz i cant buy the real strawberries back kl..
cuz they cant keep4 long time~
hehe...
will upload photos soon~
^^

1st Blog

2009-08-21T04:20:00.000-07:00

Hello~

Thanks 4 viewing my new blog~

haha....

I was sick today~

almost fainted~

I went2 clinic 2day...

OMG! i wait4 so long long time~

luckily i didn't vomit in the clinic~

doctor say i got symtom of H1N1~

OH MY GOD! i dun1!

i hav2 stay away from the public~

BUT! 2ml going2 cameron~

luckily the doctor say it's not very serious~

i still can go out~

but i feel so discomfort...

vomit~pening~

my god....

so suffering! T.T

hope i will recover b4 tues~

i dun1 the team fail becuz of me~

Anyway, GOOD LUCK 4 our team-team008..haha..

~* tr3sscret BoX*~

R.I.P my dearest granny

God, please bless her in every moment

a NEW stage - tougher challenges

it's time 2 "breath"

In a GOOD MOOD!

有时候,it just really dumb

OH! cacat timetable~

~~回到宿舍~~

--The BEST CHRISTMAS ever had IN my life-- 25/12/2010

it's gonna end

Pissed OFF!

Badmin-"torn"!

27/11/2010-officially 18!

Seriously realized a lot

知足

wrong Wrong WRONG!

T.T worse than worst

most casual ever

paper-'backed'

I JUST WANNA SCREAM NOW!

WOW! nice day..

surrender @.@

Thanks ! Miss Lee! =)

Last day =(

L.I.F.E

爱.错

Had Fun --- =)

I know "YOU" are coming soon

IM REALLY DAMN FED UP WITH YOU!

P1W1MAX WIGGY!!!

conflict

Hebe's new album gonna come out soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^.^

I have to be strong

I really miss my high school time =)

ReVeAL of my HOsTeL~

Mom! Love ya!

My room~

I still can't pass my own "heart resistance"~ =(

I am really really sorry~ but i really don't know what can I do~

Stop be in your Past Glory

Seriously... Im very blue now --

射手座-Sagittarius

SuSh1 D@Y~

Genting

Last Week~

~ 19 M@R ~

My NS life~ ^^

SPM results day~

Back2 camp again.. T.T

Some of the photos.. ^^

I'M BACK!!!!!

FAREWELL

LAST DAY!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

few hours 2 go..year 2009 is going2 END!!!!

What a BIG "surprise" !!!!!!

I WANNA GO!!!!!

Last one to go~

Killing weapons~

ADD MATHS!!!

S.H.E 091109

S.H.E-091109-

S.H.E 081109

S.H.E!!!

Nearer n nearer~

~~~~ S.H.E ~~~~~

~ 5SC1 ~

E.N.D

VOTE!!!! VOTE!! VOTE!!!!

Yam Gong!!!

I want it BACK!!

R.I.P

6s Gatherin~

~Hope she will be fine~

老婆的最後一條短信‏

CANCELED!!!

The 1 academy~

Photos-Cameron Trip (Cont~)

Photos4 cameron trip

Trip2 Cameron

回到宿舍

S.H.E ~