知足

人，本来就不容易知足~
人，本来就要求多多~
人，本来就身在福中，不知福~
人，往往喜爱追求一切完美~

做人该知足~
但做人也得要有要求啊~
真是矛盾...
唉！
要说服自己知足，
更是不容易~
难道要样样百分百才知足吗？

因为“比”
人，才会不知足~
人，才会变得贪心~

因为“比”
人，才会觉得开心~
人，才会觉得光荣~

“比”真的那么重要吗？
“比”其实很累人~
因为大家都那么的 “kia su"~

偶尔也会觉得累~
偶尔也想把自己空~

但就因为 "kia-su"~
才没时间累，没时间放空~~~~~

请！
知！
足！
吧！

wrong Wrong WRONG!

it's kinda tiring
when you get upset
n angry at the same time
it used up lots of ATP~
oh GOSH!
headache still =.=
mmmm~
thought wanna stay back 2day
i can't tahan la...
i feel so pening 2day...
went back hostel n sleep...
wow!
tired n hungry at the same time...
after taking nap,
hungry gila...
finish all the meals mom brought yesterday...
gorgeous =.=
then go buy lots packets of chips...
=.=
i 'consumed" almost all of it..
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!
fats growing =.="
fine la...
mood gets better after that....
then on9...
found out something....
i think im wrong...
what i did seriously wrong ~
gotta be awake
AWAKE!!!!
in a sudden
got a kind of feel
like 辛酸 that kind of feel...
i dunno how to describe...
but i know im stupid4 doing these stuffs...
清醒吧~
别再傻了~
傻小孩也该清醒了~

T.T worse than worst

I can't believe what the hell i did
in my paper~
juz finished trial yesterday
2day almost got back the paper
when i knew my marks,
i "HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" O.O
WHAT?!!!!
T.T
even the lecturer oso replied me : "HUH?!"
haiyo~
seriously that moment is so awkward~
like a lightning strike through my heart...
T.T
tears dripping along like rain drops....
seriously,i wanna cry~
but physically i cant cry...
my heart is crying~
mommy came 2day
i dun dARE2 tell her at all my marks...
but i think my face showed what my feeling that moment...
im her daughter
how can she dun read my mind anyway...
I felt so disappointed
damn disappointed....
tear glands were full
but tears are n0t allow2 drip...
this feeling is SO AWKWARD!!!!
GOSH!
HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE ?!!
this time cost me A LOT!
=(
im gonna get further n further away from my min~
T.T
all sorts of feelings came 2 me
in a sudden
oh gosh~
i felt angry 2 myself~
felt sorry....
mom, this time i don't have the courage
2 tell what i've got...
I FAIL!
T.T
SORRY~
this thing never ever appear in my life..
but now...
SORRY~~~
I'm damn sad now.....
how can I make sooo many mistakes...
it shouldn't happen...
AT ALL!
T.T
I'm SAD & BLUE!!!
I don't feel like i wanna continue anymore...
gonna stop here
.

most casual ever

damn lazy 2day~
after chem exam til 11 something,
nothing to do~
so just cincai wear la..
haha..wear a simple shirt n shorts(usually only wear in hostel)
then + selipar!
haha...cukup casual...
malas la...haha
1st time...housemates stare at me in the morning ...XD
last paper for trial...
no comment~
cuz 50% 50%
then wait4 tat stupid late bus til 2pm!
stupid gila.... if know earlier,
go2 pyramid better...
fine..balik then cook..haha
=.= housemates ejek me when i cooked
coz seldom cook at hostel...haha
I CAN COOK OK?
XD
2day kinda blank la..haha...
haiz...wanna go home la...
sleep on my "wangi " bed..haha...
so fast it's mid of oct..
gosh~
everything go so fast...
hooosssshhhh~
seems like every1 is preparing4 finals...
gambateh ya =)

paper-'backed'

i got backed my paper 2day~
T.T
i dunno wat2 say...
seriously.....
haiz~
the lecturer more dissappointed than me
i think so
she soooooo moody...
or i should say
she langsung no mood at all~
haiz~
WORST! EVER~
the only phrase i can mentioned
seriously it's worst ever~
she said the paper is easy~
but i wonder y i cant solve it~
i know i was wasting time on something i shouldn't
i should do wisely next time~
im so sorry~
sorry2 myself~
n sorry2 my lecturer~
=(
i try my best~
learn from mistakes~~~~

AAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I JUST WANNA SCREAM NOW!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I JUST WANNA SCREAM NOW!!!!
=(
what the hell i did today?
worse than shit!
OH!
MY!
GOD!
i don't wanna imagine it 2moro how will it be~
this saturday trials start~
oh my god~
my memory like hilang~
what i learnt few months ago
like already disappear from my memory box~
gosh~
a lot of subjects to revise ~
today i just end my last ad maths test
HONESTLY,
I DID BADLY!
i empty few questions~
1st time blank answer in paper....
i have the feeling that
the lecturer will kena me 2moro~
"YOUNG LADY~~~~ WHAT HAPPENED TO U?!!!!, I DIDN'T TEACH YOU THAT WAY,DO YOU REALLY SURE WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!!! bla bla bla~~~~"
and everytime my respond will be
"O.o" huh?
"hair-wire"
haiyo~~~
hope won't fail la~
this paper seriously a big tamparan2 me ~
please don't get low marks~~
even cukup makan pun,i will feel satisfy...
T.T
seriously feel so bad about the paper leh...
dun flung leh...
BIG IMPACT de leh....
T.T
EXAMS coming liao~
i wanna "push" myself harder liao~
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!
(positive mind will always make thing better although a bit ^.^)

WOW! nice day..

2day is the MUFY TALENT QUEST 2010
gosh~
im damn so nervous when im the 2nd to perform...
BUT they 're really un-organised...
i dun even know where i shud be...
where im gonna suppose2 wait...
it is so un-organised..
=.=
luckily i asked....
if not,im gonna continue sit at audience sits be "audience"
then dah jadi the 4th...
so got "jodoh" with number 4..
presentation the 4th,this oso the 4th...
haha..
anyway,
i'm damn enjoyed when the high pitch part..haha..
coz that's the moment im not nervous...hehe..
i know i did stand like "wood' juz now...
haha...
nervous ma....
n thirsty oso..
i dun have the chance2 drink b4 perform...
haha...
didnt win any prizes BUT
I ENJOYED!
seriously....
i like it..hehe...
still got a little cuty trophy as appreciation...
haha..i like tat..as memory oso..
hehe..champion goes 2 a guy seriously talented in piano,drums n bla bla bla...
he is talented..haha...
2nd goes2 a beat boxer...
i like his performance2..^^
then the 3rd goes2 a pair of dancer...
not really being impress by their dance anyway...
haha...
but i enjoyed..
^.^
seriously i wanna listen back how i sang juz now..hehe...
coz i langsung cant hear the music n my voice....haha...
maybe me dreaming or technical problem..hehe
but it's good memory4 my college life..haha...
I LOVE SINGING N SCREAMING!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!

surrender @.@

this time i really "surrender"~
my stomach pain til @.@
i pening..
no choice~
skip class 2day...
skip 2 classes n went back hostel early...
gosh~
felt guilty 2 skip class...
haiz...
once came back...
sleep ..sleep ..sleep...
for more than 3 hours...
wah seh~
wat a longgg nap....
body old liao..
XD
talent quest is coming soon this thursday..
wishing myself good luck...
n wont "embarassed" myself
in such a BIG HALL...
n in front sooooo many people...
=.=
gonna sing Gareth Gates - Say it isn't So
but dunno the college comp can play that song anot,,,
hope no error la...
give me a good starting =)
GoOD LUCK!
no lari pitch ^.^