T.T worse than worst

I can't believe what the hell i did
in my paper~
juz finished trial yesterday
2day almost got back the paper
when i knew my marks,
i "HUH?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" O.O
WHAT?!!!!
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even the lecturer oso replied me : "HUH?!"
haiyo~
seriously that moment is so awkward~
like a lightning strike through my heart...
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tears dripping along like rain drops....
seriously,i wanna cry~
but physically i cant cry...
my heart is crying~
mommy came 2day
i dun dARE2 tell her at all my marks...
but i think my face showed what my feeling that moment...
im her daughter
how can she dun read my mind anyway...
I felt so disappointed
damn disappointed....
tear glands were full
but tears are n0t allow2 drip...
this feeling is SO AWKWARD!!!!
GOSH!
HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE ?!!
this time cost me A LOT!
=(
im gonna get further n further away from my min~
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all sorts of feelings came 2 me
in a sudden
oh gosh~
i felt angry 2 myself~
felt sorry....
mom, this time i don't have the courage
2 tell what i've got...
I FAIL!
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SORRY~
this thing never ever appear in my life..
but now...
SORRY~~~
I'm damn sad now.....
how can I make sooo many mistakes...
it shouldn't happen...
AT ALL!
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I'm SAD & BLUE!!!
I don't feel like i wanna continue anymore...
gonna stop here
.